hey there peeps. i’m on a roll. i guess when i get into something i really get in with gusto! but seriously, i’m trying to take advantage of any baby nap time i can. they are not predictable just yet being that Lulu is only 6 weeks plus 2 days old 🙂
my day technically started at 12AM this morning,that was her first feeding. she likes to seize the day by the balls i guess, or the ta-tas 😀
so far we’ve had a pretty fun day: feeding, changing, burping, listening to my play list for spin class, staring the the mobile in her big bed, and best of all: i gave a bath and she didn’t freak out. she loved it. she even fell asleep shortly after. nothing makes me happier than i happy, well fed, clean Lulu that is sweetly napping next to me. love love love.
i also managed to take a shower and wash my hair, invert on my inversion table, and skipped my workout in favor of washing my hair and taking my time with cleaning up and prepping for her bath. i try to exercise every day but seriously, it’s not set in stone. she comes first! and also my health. working out is supposed to be my stress relief, not add stress. right???
during all the hustle of the day, i’ve been pondering… pondering about how lucky i am to be here right now. how grateful i feel. i haven’t always felt this good, there have certainly been times where i felt limited, rather than limitless. yes, i have allowed my own mind to be my enemy rather than my friend. thank heavens today we are friends!
i used to have a really hard time moving forward and going after things i wanted, starting from a young age. i was shy and nervous, and had severe anxiety as a kid. luckily it was a phase since before elementary school i was really outgoing, but during ages 6-10 i got severe anxiety and was just a bundle of nervous energy. i felt awkward and just wanted to fit in, but always felt like i was limited. mainly because i didn’t feel good enough compared to others. not pretty enough, wealthy enough, and not ‘american’ enough. it’s all SO silly now that i felt that way, but it is what it is.
examples of the limitations i thought i had:
- not pretty enough
- not blonde, therefore not pretty
- not thin enough
- not cool enough
- not ‘normal’ enough, whatever that means
- too foreign
- too exotic
- single mom always out, great-grandmother at home that didn’t speak english
- tiny apartments or homes in ‘poor’ areas before my mom remarried
- not knowing my father till 23 yrs old
- getting diagnosed with severe scoliosis at age 10
- having to go to the chiropractor 3-5 times a week for years till i was 19
- having back surgery at age 20
- thyroid cancer
- blood clotting disorder
- being pregnant with spinal fusion
- being pregnant at 37 years old
- trying to succeed in the corporate world without a degree (before i had one)
- a family history of diabetes, depression, and stroke
i used to let this list of things get me down, but one day i decided i can change the way i feel. i can focus on the positive. i didn’t have it that bad, and even if i did so what? i can still live my best life no matter what.
the days where i felt limited are long gone, for the most part. some days i do feel challenged like with my back and all the breastfeeding. but then i go over my reasons to be grateful and do my best to appreciate all i have. if that doesn’t work, i get something yummy to eat. yup, i don’t mind eating to feel better!!!
today i do things to help me feel joyful and happy, each day. they help me to feel limitless rather than limited. these are ingredients to help me feel good as much as possible. i can’t do them all some days, but i try my best.
daily happiness rituals:
- wake up and say thank you each morning
- say my gratitude prayers morning and night time, now to my baby girl
- give kisses to my loves: baby, hubby, doggies
- stretch and give thanks
- have water with lemon – thanks for the reminder, Meg!
- drink my greens powder and take supplements
- try to sweat for 30 min a few times a week
- take deep breathes in the shower
- oil pulling for oral health
- inversion table for a few minutes, hanging upside down is awesome
- prepare good food to eat: lately it’s been potatoes, rice, and more carbs 🙂
- be nice and loving to my hubby
things i try to do whenever i can
- go for a walk
- walk the dogs
- get a massage
- go out with friends
- take the baby out to a cafe or walk
- visit friends with the baby
- invite people over to keep me company
- go meet a mommy group
well that’s all i got. i’m back to check on the baby. hope you’re having a great hump day!!
have you ever felt limited?
what do you do to feel good and feel limitless?